Song Eight: Hear My Cry (by Doug)
Hear my cry, oh God.
Listen to my prayer, from the depths of my soul.
From the end of the earth,
My soul cries out when my heart is faint. When my heart is faint.
Chorus: Lord, lead me to a rock that is higher than I.
For you are my refuge.
Oh a strong tower against the enemy.
Let me dwell in thy tent forever.
For God, my soul waits.
I wait alone, in the silence of the morning.
My spirit is, whisper of my Lord,
as in the sunny of the morning breeze. Of the morning wind.
From the ends of the earth, I call to you, and you answer my prayer.
You answer my prayer. You answer my prayer.
Listen to Doug’s recording of this Hear My Cry by clicking on the arrow below. Allow some time for it to load.
Doug with his accompanist at his Master’s Vocal Recital, Vermillion, SD
In mid-June of 1998 we learned that there was nothing medically that could be done for Doug. Such horribly hard news to recieve. Some weeks later, when his body went into a coma, I read the prayer Jesus prayed in the garden on the night he was betrayed. Jesus demonstrated great trust in the plan of His Heavenly Father, but it wasn’t without struggle.
Doug, his family, as well as his church family, prayed all during Doug’s illness, imploring God to heal him. We did not want to give up hope for physical healing.
Doug worked with his dad, Peter Friesen, at Winkler Bible Institute.
There is the idea of a “Prayer of Indifference” that come from the 2000 plus years of Christian tradition. It sounds wrong at first, but it means praying to be free from the desires that hold us back from saying yes to God and His will and purposes. Another way to think of this prayer is to pray to relinquish control, leave the results in God’s hands, asking to be “indifferent” to the results. This is what faith allows us to do, but it can be a struggle to take refuge in God alone. In this song, Doug declares, “you Lord are my refuge.”
That is what Jesus was able to do, but first he wrestled with God in the Garden right before He was arrested, tried, and crucified. He cried out saying, “My Father, if it is possible, may this cup be taken from me”. Eventually, Jesus came to the place where He was able to say, “not my will but thine be done.” (Matt. 26:39 NIV) This kind of prayer can only be uttered by those who are fully confident of God’s neverending love for them.
This is where I came to as Doug lay in a semi-coma. With sorrow…”Lord, your will be done. If healing isn’t going to happen, please let Doug’s suffering end.”
This song reflects the deep longings and feelings that come with these kinds of prayers for help. Do not hesitate to pray these types of prayers yourself or for someone you know. Jesus did. Jesus then expressed faith in God with his final prayer of “not my will but yours be done”.
During a time of prayer God gave Doug tremendous peace in the last days of his conscious life. The fear of death was gone. He was trusting in God’s loving care. Consider pouring out your heart to God about your concerns.
If you are able, consider the prayer below by Richard Foster, a “Prayer of Relinquishment” as he calls it.
Prayer of Relinquishment, by Richard Foster
Today, O Lord, I yield myself to You.
May Your will be my delight today.
May You have perfect sway in me.
May your love be the pattern of my living.
I surrender to You my hopes, my dreams, my ambitions.
Do with them what You will, when You will, as You will.
I place into Your loving care my family, my friends, my future.
Care for them with a care that I can never give.
I release into Your hands my need to control, my craving for status, my fear of obscurity.
Eradicate the evil, purify the good, and establish Your Kingdom on earth.
For Jesus’ sake, Amen.